Worship

I'm going to have to skip all the details about why I was in my car full of so much stress from everything that's been happening lately. I prayed, God, I'm just going to worship you. And so I turned on something sung by Kim Walker, anything by her would do the trick. I started to sing, thought wow I love this song, felt the Holy Spirit start to minister to me in love, then I stopped.

No, I said to God, I am not going to get into this if it's just going to end five minutes later and I'll still be here will all this junk going on, Lord, I need something eternal to sustain me. I know how powerful worship is. I know that just worshiping God in the middle of my circumstances would be productive, but what I have been going through in the last week has required more self control and endurance out of me and  frankly, I was tired of it. I really needed something from God that was going to make these attacks go away and/or make me feel above it all. However, God responded, Well you're not in Heaven yet. Like a whiny kid and not in total seriousness I replied, Well then I wanna be in Heaven!

I sat there letting the new understanding of just how much we need Heaven and what a wonderful place it is sink in. Then I figured, well I guess I'll just worship him anyways. I turned the music louder, just laid my head on God's shoulder (figuratively speaking). Then I got a vision.

I am going to try and put this vision into words, but it will not do it justice. What I saw was an army of worship. I saw spirits of worship and praise pressing forward as an army marches on in battle. Only, this army had no physical form that makes sense. It was just literally spirits of worship and praise. They moved forward like a monstrous title wave, yet in some kind of unison, moved side to side at the same time. There was no sealing or floor. This army was in a place that does not compare to earthly shapes. So I knew that this was God showing me that what goes on spiritually when we praise is not visible to us here.

This blessed me so much. Although we are on earth and dealing with the will of other's, our flesh, and Satan's plans of destruction, we still have a God who fights for us in ways we don't understand. When we make a decision to praise him in a battle, he goes to battle with his supreme power, even if we don't see victory in the horizon. I was encouraged to continue, and I hope this encourages you to be hopeful in your worship. God is so sovereign.